I Want to be Alive!

What I fear the most is being alive,
Going through the motions; wasting time–
Holding onto the hope that maybe I’ll be fine,
And is that what you really want for my life?
To be counting down the days until I’m going to die?
What will it take to feel alright?
When the sun never ever shines?
When I wake up in the dead of the night,
Wandering around like I’ve lost my mind,
Living every day in eternal fright,
Keeping all of my emotions out of sight,
I don’t want to get by!
I want to feel alive!
(I want to be alive!)
(I want to feel alright)