Loneliness

The world is so big, yet I am alone.Nowhere to go; nowhere to call home.I am so fragile and my heart is so soft.If you don’t hold my hand then I will get lost. And when there is no one by my side.In my head is where I reside–And in my head is where I

What Lies Behind My Eyes

Maybe you like the way I pretend so wellWell, maybe you’re just like everyone else!And maybe you like the false confidence I wear,Well, maybe that burden is too much to bear!And when my spine snaps from the weight it carries,Don’t you think I’d be better off buried?And when you push me off the ledge and

Do I Seem Alright?

When they ask me about my lifeI just laugh and say, “Do I seem alright?Do I seem like the type,To do anything right?” And when the doctor tells you he can’t believe how much you went through.Don’t you think that is an issue?Don’t you think I’d have nightmares about it every night?Don’t you know nothing

The Darkness Swarms Around Me

When you lay awake at night what do you think of?Is it suicide, demons, blood, or your fear of love?Do you lay awake thinking about everything you’ve done wrong?Do you wish with all your might that you might be able to be someone? Those are the thoughts that haunt me every night,When the darkness swarms

Journal Entry #4: When I Was a Little Girl

When I was a little girl I wanted to run away, so I would run from home. I was a ghost in the house. No one kept an eye on me and I sat there alone. I was neglected and shown how to handle life with no emotion. Disconnected from the world and me. When

You’re Better Off Without Me

My mind is a dark and unforgiving placeAnd maybe I should keep my distance; you need your space.And maybe it was meant to end up this wayFeeling alone without anyone willing to stay,And you say im fucked up; you say im insane?Because of the suicidal ideations that haunt my brain? I need to get better;

It Can’t Be Worse Than Here

How nice it might beTo not have to bare my teethAt every little thingThat is said to me–How nice it might have beenNot to scar my untouched skin,Not to fall down the rabbit hole againNot feel my body starting to get thin–Wasting away in front of myselfAll I ever wanted was for someone to help.But

Come Home

I grasp the air in front of me trying to grab a rope,But instead, I’m falling down a dark rabbit hole,I let go of the only thing,Keeping me in reality.And I fell–Down into the depths of hell! Where I see flames ablaze,And I see a person locked in a cage,She sits across from me.Gasping for

I’m Insane!

Shame is a word I might use,To explain how I feel about the types of things you’d do,And I think I deserved it too,Drunk on your physical abuse.It got me high, oh, so high–To have to fight for my life–I can disconnect in one wordI’m insane haven’t you heard?Detached from reality as young as six,Don’t

Sleep in Peace

I don’t want to talk. I just want to die.I’m so sick of living in this endless night,So dark–Just take my life,Whisper in my ear as you slit my throat,“It will be okay. It’s time for you to go!”I think in my head I have this perfect image of dying,I’ll finally feel at peace and