Loneliness

The world is so big, yet I am alone.Nowhere to go; nowhere to call home.I am so fragile and my heart is so soft.If you don’t hold my hand then I will get lost. And when there is no one by my side.In my head is where I reside–And in my head is where I

The Darkness Swarms Around Me

When you lay awake at night what do you think of?Is it suicide, demons, blood, or your fear of love?Do you lay awake thinking about everything you’ve done wrong?Do you wish with all your might that you might be able to be someone? Those are the thoughts that haunt me every night,When the darkness swarms

You’re Better Off Without Me

My mind is a dark and unforgiving placeAnd maybe I should keep my distance; you need your space.And maybe it was meant to end up this wayFeeling alone without anyone willing to stay,And you say im fucked up; you say im insane?Because of the suicidal ideations that haunt my brain? I need to get better;

The Creatures that Haunt Me

The emptiness grabs my aching body,The path in front of me is lonely and rocky.And as it harshly grasps my skin so tightly,It is not gentle or kind; it doesn’t do so lightly.I fall down onto my hands and knees,The rocks are sharp, so they scrape me.And now I am nothing but a bloody mess,But

Journal Listing #3: It’s Not That Easy, Even if I Want it to Be

Sometimes things don’t work out the way you want them to. Sometimes even though you hope so hard and wish like it’s life or death, things just don’t make sense. As much as you tell yourself, “It will all work out, everything happens for a reason.” It all just seems like a confused mess of

Empty Bones

The air in my empty bones,Whistles loud enough to give me the chills,The emptiness in my bones,Makes me feel all alone–In a house that was never my home– The emptiness–Is comfort,Of a love that was never there,A comfort that never warmed my heart,So I’m ice cold– And empty–

Join Me

The wind whispered in my earsSome of the things that I fear–I heard the voices coo at meWhispering so gently; so softly–“You are so desperately alone–You will never have a homeYou will never see the light of dayYou were destined for a cursed fate!” I cover my aching ears and drop to the cold, hard

You Are Empty

There’s something to be said for the emptiness you feel in your heart,You feel the black hole in your chest beginning to start,Growing with every single passing hour,And you can feel the pressure; you can feel it’s power– It consumes your body in the darkness; in the night,And you know you will never again see

Memories Haunt

I think about half-forgotten memories as I fall asleep,When I wake up I think about my scary half-forgotten dreams,All day long my memories haunt me,Things I could have changed; done differently,And the anxiety I feel when my brain can’t even think,Clouded and foggy with the broken memories– What is real? What is fake?Don’t you realize

The Ticking Stopped

It was late and the clock kept ticking when I looked at it,I’ve always been a huge fan of darkness I must admit,I looked outside of my window to find,That everything was detached from it’s place in time–Nothing seemed real; nothing was okay,And I wondered if this was truly my fate,The thoughts in my head