Time

My life is a ticking time bomb that I’ve both tried to diffuse and set off a hundred times,Never knowing where to turn; never making up my mind.And when I ask you, “What does it take to truly be alive?”You look at me with deep sorrow in your eyes.Because you don’t know either–And you know

Loneliness

The world is so big, yet I am alone.Nowhere to go; nowhere to call home.I am so fragile and my heart is so soft.If you don’t hold my hand then I will get lost. And when there is no one by my side.In my head is where I reside–And in my head is where I

What Lies Behind My Eyes

Maybe you like the way I pretend so wellWell, maybe you’re just like everyone else!And maybe you like the false confidence I wear,Well, maybe that burden is too much to bear!And when my spine snaps from the weight it carries,Don’t you think I’d be better off buried?And when you push me off the ledge and

Goodnight

You dont have to say a lot but somehow you say so much,I want to hang on to every word; feel your soft touch.And as our tongues meet intertwined,I want nothing more than for you to be mine,I want to hold you so incredibly close.And that’s what it’s like to be in love I suppose,Never

Do I Seem Alright?

When they ask me about my lifeI just laugh and say, “Do I seem alright?Do I seem like the type,To do anything right?” And when the doctor tells you he can’t believe how much you went through.Don’t you think that is an issue?Don’t you think I’d have nightmares about it every night?Don’t you know nothing

The Darkness Swarms Around Me

When you lay awake at night what do you think of?Is it suicide, demons, blood, or your fear of love?Do you lay awake thinking about everything you’ve done wrong?Do you wish with all your might that you might be able to be someone? Those are the thoughts that haunt me every night,When the darkness swarms

Journal Entry #4: When I Was a Little Girl

When I was a little girl I wanted to run away, so I would run from home. I was a ghost in the house. No one kept an eye on me and I sat there alone. I was neglected and shown how to handle life with no emotion. Disconnected from the world and me. When

You’re Better Off Without Me

My mind is a dark and unforgiving placeAnd maybe I should keep my distance; you need your space.And maybe it was meant to end up this wayFeeling alone without anyone willing to stay,And you say im fucked up; you say im insane?Because of the suicidal ideations that haunt my brain? I need to get better;